So much potential in one spiral

Yesterday I was experiencing the bubbling up before a ’shift in reality/perspective’. (This seems to happen quite consistantly with me!) When you put energy into a system or substance it becomes more erratic and less coherent until it moves into it’s new state where it finds it’s coherance and stability again. This is such a brilliant way if describing (thanks Nassim) what happens with people as they are about to experience a transformation by way of new health, perspective or insight. The old pattern needs to be challenged so that the body can choose a different more efficient path of communication. Only if this happens can we start to become they new way if being, or else we would quite simply go back to the old (more familiar) way if doing things.

Wonderfully, this ’shaking up’ of the old doesn’t gave to be painful or scary, but instead liberating and exciting. When we can embrace the process of change it becomes far more easeful and we can find fun even in the challenges as we know there is a brighter perspective on the other side!

Today i am feeling totally new and exhilarated. I can feel the old paradigms from yesterday falling away and space for new possibilities.

I felt light and dynamic in class. I could feel and see my sacrum in a whole brighter relationship to my illiums- really being propelled up by them. It was amazing. I could really feel the spiral in my illio- sacral joints and suddenly everything is easier and lighter than ever before. Everything us so incredibly easy and fun when you embody the function and allow the body to do what it is supposed to do.

So much fun!

Hello again

I’ve enjoyed taking a break from blogging for a while but I feel it’s time to come out again :)

I had the most amazing experience today imaging on the subway. It was crowded but I was able to focus fully on feeling my breath spiralling into my lungs and supporting my ribcage like warm air balloons. Once my breath was flowing more, it allowed a huge release of tension and ‘force’ to be released, just allowing things to ‘be’ the natural ease that they are designed to be.

Franklin Method is just amazing. When you feel the brilliant design within, suddenly everything is so simple and light. Yesterday in Franklin Method class we were feeling the bone rhythms of the pelvis, femur and tibia all spiralling and dancing with each other. everyone felt so amazing, it was beautiful to observe. It’s like we have all of these wonders inside of us to be discovered and experienced and they love being seen!

Sunday morning in the park

It’s a gorgeous day. Bright, sunny, peaceful November day. I’m in Prospect Park taking in the amazing sensations of colors, leaves, life and fun. So great to watch people play games and enjoy moving. There’s been some funny conversations that I’ve heard some of the runners come out with. Two very unlikely looking guys talking about meditation and being with their thoughts. “oh no, I just want to get away from my thoughts” he says.

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I am creating a short animation film called “The Story of Health.” It will convey a progressive discussion of health and healthcare, and promote the power of each individual’s ability to self-heal. I have applied for the Free Range Utopia Grant to help get this project off the ground. The concept with the most votes gets $15,000 towards their goal.  All you have to do to help change the world… is vote!

Please visit http://youtopia.uservoice.com Scroll down and click on “Health and Mental Health” on the right hand side. There you will find “The Story of Health.” Click on vote. It’s free, but you need to sign up. You have a total of 3 votes that you can give to this project. And that’s it!

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The Story of Health

I wish to create an inspiring animation film about ‘The Story of Health’. The mission is to empower individuals to take a fresh look at their lives and health and recognize the relationship between every aspect of their body, mind, spirit, emotions and life.

Why do we get sick? What is illness? How are the challenges of our daily lives paralleled in physical ailments?  This film will show the factors which build up over time, causing us to experience symptoms of illness or disease.

How can we begin to experience healing from within?  We can start to let go of unproductive symptoms by using concepts from BodyTalk, Franklin Method and new advances in physics (Nassim Haramein).  As we become more balanced within ourselves, we create a more balanced world- one that is based on creation and insight, rather than conflict, destruction and consumption. As we recognize the power within us, we are enabled to unite as unique individuals and share our perspectives and gifts.

This film will inspire, unite, excite and act as a catalyst to continue the transformation that our world is already undergoing. This is a Global Movement.   This is the beginning of a new chapter in health and wellness available to people across nations and continents.   May the diversity of our backgrounds supply richness for the chapters ahead as we continue this journey towards a better Earth.

Nearly a year of blogging

It’s my birthday next week which will also be the birthday of my blog. One year of blogging! Feels good. Sometimes it’s been ‘on’, sometimes not quite so… There’s been a few times where I disappeared from this Internet addition, but on the whole I’ve been there- sharing. Having a blog is something I never thought I’d do. I didn’t think I was very good at writing, and certainly the thought of putting it online for anyone in the Universe to read scared me into keeping my expression to myself. Obviously I overcame these- I just decided it didn’t matter and I don’t care! So, I don’t always spell right or write clearly- but it doesn’t matter and doesn’t have to be perfect. It doesn’t matter who refs it or who doesn’t- it’s more about me using it as an expression, like a big vision board. It’s out there. It’s safe to communicate- whether it’s amazing, inspiring, crazy, down, non-comprehendable…!? I have to say it’s very freeing. I also know that I’m not anywhere near being fully open. But it’s the first step towards that.

I had an amazing BodyTalk session with Debbie Moran on Monday night and it was probably one of my most intense crazy sessions yet. It literally felt like I was spiralling through the Universe and reaching into many dimensions! Then falling falling falling… It addresed everything I’ve been aware of recently and was incredible. Communication and vision was a big part of it. Breathe.

Ok, I’m here at 57th St. Off for ny ballet mediatation. More later

Day by day

Every day is brand new. There are new things to be seen, experienced, created, danced. I feel so dramatically different yet again since these past few days. Journey. Exactly. That’s it. It’s just an unfolding jouney- a story book and we are reading and writing it similtaniously. Or not- if we’re stuck on past events and the things which tie us to habits and old emotions and concerns then we’re just reading and there’s no space to write.

This morning the timing of the trains was perfect. I turned up and there it was. Had I not listened to the voice inside that said ‘leave now!…. don’t make tea’ I would have missed it.

Journey

Brilliant picture :-) So NYC. So life. So everything!

Clap clap

Listening to one of Simon’s songs on my new headphones which were finally replaced from Bose. I had a whole back and forth trying to get my new ones… But eventually!

Just attended Zvi’s benefit. Wonderful! What a magical and love filled group of dancers. It inspired me a lot on many levels with dance, creation, expression, Franklin method and everything. Makes me want to be dancing more and at the same time proccess a lot of my past experiences with dance. The parts of me that want to put myself out there, the parts that don’t, the parts that are insecure, the parts that want to be seen and expressed…

Today has been a lot of eppifanies with my relationship to dance and myself. Me with myself and how I am in a relationship. I have pretty much been able to move to a certain place with myself on my own and when there’s another person involved everything starts from square one again. Perfect mirrors if we are ready to see them. Today I felt like someone else put dance before me… Hang on a minute, isn’t that what you do!???! Right. I totally make dance more important than myself, my spirit, and life sometimes. It’s a fine balance which I’m not always in. Balance that is. The need to be a dancer is not being a dancer. If you want something, you’re saying you don’t have it. Silly but I fell for it again.

Thats all for now

Life and magic and creation and inspiration. It’s amazing. These past couple of days have been challenging in many ways and as these new expansive horizons open up and take shape in the physical world I feel old restrictions shrival and fall away. I see very clearly a life on both coasts and around the world. Full of adventure and experiences and wonderful friends and evolution.

Franklin method is so amazing!!!

I just taught my class at DNA an I feel so incredible. The reason why I want to teach and share this is because every time i or someone has a profound ‘a-ha’ moment it’s like a magical zing that flys through the whole space and is so exciting. To embody function is like shouting ‘yes! yes! Exactly!!!’ at the top of your lungs. It’s ‘of course’. It’s magical. Deep, warm, full of love and acceptance. As people start to recognize what they have been practicing that does not work and how their mind and thoughts really do affect their body it’s like being given the keys to a field of possibilities and dreams. Yes you can! Yes you really can! It’s all there. It’s already within you, it just needs to be brought into light and be seen and embraced. Health, abundance, passion, delight, wisdom. That deep knowing. The deep part which knows everything, knows it’s all possible and can live and create and expand. It can keep expanding. And keep discovering. It’s not like you reach a limit and then have to come down again. It’s all unfolding and spiralling and multiplying in beauty. Love has no limits. It’s eternal. I think that’s it. It can be more each day. It can always be the ‘best ever!!!’ How amazing is that?

When it’s all goes ZING~~~

They were amazing sessions! What a gift to the world.

Never ending story

Wow wow wow incredible amazing sessions today. Blew me into another dimension! I have no words really except wow!

I guess this weekend and Nassim’s work has shifted me yet again into new places and possibilities and I can witness the infinite that is moving this finite.

It’s like the sessions unfold- each completely unique and incredible. I used to think that at some point there must start repeating but no, each one goes to new realms of amazingness. It’s like the fractal. They emerge, born out of this creative energy that evolves us and unites us. It expresses itsel in new ways like a new story and a new chapter.

I have been feeling that every day I am a new person, and today I feel like I’ve been a new person at least five times. To witness the magic in people and their transformations in front of my eyes and see the pieces come together in perfect syncronisity. “I was just thinking that” or “that just happened” …..

The infinite within. The Universe in every cell. Infinitely big and yet confined within this finite place. The right left brain. The outside and the inside.

Amazing. More in a bit ;-)

Everything is everything

Today is the first day that I feel my body and mind back on track in class. Its so easy to be in the place where I am making things happen rather than just getting out of the way and allowing it to flow through me. Being in NYC where all you see is concrete and people, it can feel very dis-associated from the rest of the world. An yet, in many ways NYC is the center of the world. It’s energy is so unique and very dense while also inspiring and exhilarating. It’s like a quick mirror an reflects back immediately what you put into it or the way you see it. If I didn’t have time in dance class to really come back inside of myself and be with what I am feeling then it would be impossible for me to be here!

I’m still seriously thinking of moving to LA and being bi-coastal. That feels right. Today it really looks like the world and universe is opening up to be explored. It doesn’t matter where you are- it’s all the same through your eyes.

When I’m not feeling it, that’s what I see. And when I’m in it and inspired- that’s what I experience..

Today in class I asked the Universe to flow through me when I piroetted and it really carried me. To feel that immence support and trust is what it’s all about.

Every day is a complete reevaluation of of everything. So it’s fresh and new and all is possible. Everything is everything.

Travel

I feel like I am supposed to be everywhere doing my thing. Travelling, sharing and inspiring.

It’s good to be back in dance class although I miss the sun and feeling of CA. I also really love using my body to get around in NYC. It’s an adventure to leave the house and transport myself around up and down stairs walking lots and being physical. Very different from sitting in a car. Bi- coastal. Hmm. It’s funny, I used to feel kind of small in this big world, and now I feel like the world had gotten a lot smaller and I want to explore it all and then go explore other planets!

It’s been another incredible month and everything is transforming at a rapid rate. I’ve been to a lot of places in the past three weeks and met a lot of wonderful people. It’s been an interesting process with my visa and seeing how the pieces are coming (and not) together. It’s presented me lots of opportunities and connections as well as things to learn and witness. I’ve had to step into a bigger and bigger place and hold that in all aspects of my life.

This past weekend I was in Joshua Tree with Nassim Haramein experiencing the incredible tranmission of information and insights. It felt so obvious that we look at the world, Universe, movement, everything in this way. Of course this is how things work. Of course it’s all of this coming together- science, technology, spirituality, health, life… It’s all the same thing. It’s just a simple shift in perspective. Once you see it, how can it be any other way?

It’s what BodyTalk is. It’s what Franklin Method is. It’s what Orkie and all the feeling, meditation and connecting practices that I have experienced. And it’s science.

It’s also really shifted my perpective on time. I feel far more connected to a whole different reality of time and the interconnectivity of all. Being aware of steppng into and out of ‘the field’ and having a clear connection or rather being a clearer conduit and expression of it.

Today I was seeing more clearly the interaction between the field and what we experience as physical reality…. Hmm at the food coop now so haveto catch up on this later

Running

I’ve been all over the place this last week… getting my head around the west coast and embracing some different experiences! It’s been challenging not taking class regularly and eating out a bunch, so not eating my home cooking! but it’s all been amazing!

We did amazing workshops at the cirque du soleil and it was so interesting to watch the artists and their experience of the Franklin Method. It was quite incredible to see these intense talented performers embrace a new idea of embodying their design and actually moving with less tension rather than more being better. They have such an intense performance schedule and their bodies would certainly appreciate being used more efficiently so they don’t have so much wear and tear.

I have actually run the past couple of days and really enjoyed it! But now my legs ache a lot! I guess it’s good preparation for snowboarding!

Here i am

Here I am. Sitting on the plane in San Diago, waiting to get off and feel the West Coast air.

Here’s a picture of the weather forecast! And one of my bag of food! That’s about all I have for you right now!

Time to get off

Just feel it

These past two days I have been engulfed in ‘all the things I need to do..’ for my visa application. It’s easy to drown in this place and it really is a one way street of a downward spiral. After all, if you’re saying to yourself “I have to do…. There’s so much…” it just creates tension and you’re practicing the feeling of not having done it. And guess what you get then!!? So in times of many tasks to complete I have to remind myself constantly to keep letting it al go and remembering the big picture. If I can feel it, then it happens. My mind is just a distraction.

Hmmm. After my 3am start the other day, I was pretty tired and concluded that wasn’t a good idea (unless I’d made it to bed at 8, which I hadn’t). The next night I got ‘randomly’ woken up by a mosquito. I say randomly cos it’s way past the season and I have screens… Strange. I think it was sent to wake me so I could rememember my dreams. They were pretty insightful with different images and messages. Can’t say I remember them too well now tho!

I’m happy to be going to Zvi’s ballet this morning. I took a modern class yesterday and now I feel like I have to put myself back together. The more I experience how dance is taught, the more and more insane it is. I had forgotten how crazy it is. “Get alligned! Stretch! Hold your center..!” I was talking to Lauren last night and she was saying that she never could keep her belly button to her spine and dance. She thought she was a failure because she couldn’t remember to do it. That’s because it’s physically impossible!!! You can’t! You can’t hold your belly button to your spine and move! No wonder people are tense and injured, the movement world is teaching things which are all backwards- based on what?? Tradition? I want to move- dance, not have to ignore the cues of “keeping your shoulders and hips alligned while you lift your leg!”

It creates tension because the blueprint is arguing with the form. The two worlds don’t match up. You’re arguing with function. It’s torture! Really. But we do it because we’re told that’s what you have to do to be accepted and good. Create tension and then work hard to move through it. What happened to just moving and getting the body and mind on the same page working together!!??

Let’s start getting out of the way and allowing the natural function. That’s where the magic happens. Then it’s magical and joyful, rather than fighting and efforting that creates exhaustion and injury.

I don’t want to be alone in this place anymore. Let’s start enjoying movement by recognizing we just have to get out of the way and let it happen.

Everything is perfect

Incredible. This day has been incredible. Actually it started very confusing, challenging, pushing me to choose to release tension and observe.

I felt so tired his morning. Yesterday I woke up at 3am, and for some reason thought it would be a good idea to get up! Maybe it was… but I have been rather tired since dispite getting a good night sleep last night. I didn’t go to class yesterday and felt a bit icky, but it was brilliant in retrospect, quite brilliant. It’s amazing watching life unfold, and the descisions or choices or action that we think we’re making, and really they are perfectly orcestrated.

Being in class I had to not resist being tired or the voices that said I can’t feel good, or enjoy movement. I also took a modern class and it blew me away the amount of tension and resistance to moving in all the dancers. ‘I’m working hard’ … but you’re just creating the resistance to then push against. ‘Pull in your belly button and tighten your core’….. ‘and then move!!!’ You can’t! It’s impossible. You’re blocking your own movement. No wonder I could never move! This is insane. Does noone else think it’s insane??? Aparently not… yet.

Walking aroung NYC today, I felt like an alien. Everyone was bashing into everyone esle and lost in their own worlds. Does noone else see this illusion!?? None of that stuff is real- or less important.

So where is the incredible bit?? It really culminated when I started doing BodyTalk. I think today’s sessions may be the most amazing I have experienced yet. It seemed to bring all my experiences that didnt make sense and put them in a perfect presentation to look at, learn and grow from them. Without challenge, you don’t grow. To strengthan the muscles of a- ttention (wihout tension) and being and increased awareness, you need some resistance. Can I even choose now!?

It seems everyone I spoke to had a similar experince of NYC today- which shows perfectly our shared experience.

The last session I did tonight blew me away. I have felt a big shift and leap in my sessions since this last weekend and John’s class. It is just creating more and more space for new possibilties.

I’m not going to write the details of the session online, but it changed me and her- shifted to a new dimension, new clarity, perfection. Incredible.

Its GO time

So, incase it wasn’t go time enough already- now it really is! I have a week to get enough materials together for my visa. If you can help in any way by writing about me, quoting me etc, please let me know! The difference with this go time (as opposed to past go times) is it feels easy and flowing. I just have to do the stuff- but the most important thing is to stay connected and easeful in the process. Feels nice.

My ribs hurt today- when I laugh or cough- from my flying trip yesterday! But it somehow feels good- like I broke up an old pattern and moved into a new place with my ribs and spine. Kinda like a self adjustment!

I felt great in ballet today. There was a flow of images and ease that was magical. At one point it almost felt too much! I was enjoying feeling my skull bones counter rotating, like the pelvic halves as wheels. They go in sync with them, and it really freed up my whole movement in my pelvis, spine and head.

I listened to Amit Goswami’s online presentation this evening which was great. I’m so interested to see where that aspect will lead.

That’s all. I’ve gotta get some rest, so I can get up super early and continue my mission! :-)

With love x

I saw this on the subway the other week. Thought it was pretty cool, and very true :-)

It’s time for a global perspective

Time for rice porridge

It’s cold. Time for nice warming rice porridge (which I can never spell)…. and miso soup and warming warming loviness. And wonderful friends to share it with :-)

Tripping

Heading back to NYC after another trip of learning, discovery and connections. I visited Portland, Oregon for the first time ever to take John’s new Finding Health class.

John is using the term ‘consciousness based’ life tool to refer to BodyTalk. That felt good.

I’ve been home, slept and am now heading to class. As I was walking to the subway, I was contemplating the ‘concept’ or feeling the experience of tensegrity. This has become a big word in BodyTalk, but for it to actually be something that is experienced and integrated into life it needs to translated so it can be ingested as a feeling. I am blessed and lucky that with my journey as a dancer and Franklin Method really, it is more than a conept in my mind. Every day as I explore and witness the amazing design of my body, I am able to be feel what tensegrity really is in more depth.

Our bodies cannot be efficient as a tensegrity structure if there is tension anywhere. Or rather it is directly proportional to the most tense part. Obviously, the process of letting go of tension is exactly that- a process. It only becomes the natural way of being when a shift on a deep level has occured in either embodying the function with an insight, and clarity (conscious or subconscious) on the aspect which kept us from being able to live on that place.

As I walked to the subway, I was thinking tensegrity, feeling that every part was supporting every other by this dynamic interconnected network, and so no one part has to do all the work or take more stress. This way, when it’s working well, ’stress’ is near impossible because allthe forces are distributed in so many options. There are infinite possibilities for the whole body to tranmute force.

The train’s coming….. I run to catch it, and I trip on an invisible string…. Fllllllyyyyy through the air and slide, kinda bounce to the ground at some very shocked guy’s feet. Hmm. Interesting. I get up and everything is more than fine. I have just had a direct experience of my body absorbing shock. There was no fear, and there’s no injury- just an insight!

Softness, feeling supported by the everythingness- you’re always going to be fine- even when it looks bad.

I missed the train. So I could write this- apparently!

Why shouldn’t it be easy?

Who ever made the rule that moving should be difficult. You’re not working hard enough if you’re not sweating, hurting, straining, pushing it. I remember thinking that and then from there ‘working really hard’ which wasn’t at all productive or making me a better dancer.

Silly

And am i breathing?

What a good question to keep asking. I have noticed how I stop breathing- just hold my breath, or don’t let it flow fully in or out. If I am concentrating, working at my computer, dancing…anytime! During class I pay more attension to it, and be able to gently notice bring myself back to flowing breath. Can I still breathe even when it’s challenging? As soon as my breath stops flowing, I know that I am holding somewhere in my body. When my body doesn’t feel supported, when it’s ‘trying’, when it’s mis-alligned or I’m trying to do something that’s going against function… my breathe becomes shallower. If I’m in balance, ease and present, then it spirals through me and creates ease, balance, joy, exhilaration.

By imaging my diaphragm and allowing it to be elastic and spiral as I move, rather than hold it in place, it not only liberates my breath, but the flow in my whole body.

A bouncy castle inside every one of us

Just finished ballet class. I’m on the train waiting for it to leave. Did I tell you that I have been dancing with wings!? When I imagine and feel my wings, everyhing is easier and more effortless. Piroettes turn simply and there is far less fear held in them. I recognized again today- more than ever how far I have come. I remember having an assesment at college and telling the staff members all the things I was going to do- and they laughed at me. But I knew that it was all going to happen- and it is and I am an it feels amazing.

The thing is I had to learn how and that has been the center of my journey. It doesn’t matter what it is- it’s the path and process. It’s magical.

Yesterday, Shannon and I were sharing about our joy and passion for movement, dance, Franklin Method…. This journey and the fundimental reason- reason for all of it- belief, joy and creation. We both stated our goals and intensions and by hearing them in each other, I could see it being there so vividly, it was like it had already happened. The difference now is that the goals seem to just come out of me without me feeling like I ‘own them’. It’s more like taking care of them, like they have they’re own intension and I’m supporting that. It takes away the tension and comes from a different place of making anything happen.

In the body you can’t ”make’ allignment, ease, coordination, support. You have to allow it, feel it and just be it. Just be it. Then do it (choose). And be it again. As soon as you ‘try to make’ anything, you meet tension because the underlying belief is that you don’t have it already.

Same with everything.

Today in class, I statred out feeling not great… but ok, and just kept practicing the feelings of being great and coming back to images and embodying my function. It’s amazing. It’s like when you jump on a bouncy castle, how can you not be in joy and smile and laugh. I’ve tried it- it’s imposiible. And we all have bouncy castles inside of us- we just have to get on it and feel the bounce. Then it’s this amazing feeling that comes from inside. Nowhere else, and it can’t be taken away. As I imagined and felt my elastic muscles supporting the spirals of my bones, (and i’ve been thinking a lot about the nature of muscle recently!) it fells like I’m bouncing in every part of me. I have little bouncy castles on my knees, between my vertabrea, in my feet, diaphragm, organs… And as you feel that bounce- the down- it propels you up. The rebound. The balance and interaction between up and down. When you go down, you go up and you feel support. It’s like an air bed- if you push down on it, then it supports you. Simple. There’s the support.

Elastic. Bounce. Amazing feeling. It’s everywhere in the body and is just waiting to be uncovered- allowed. Where you ever told as a child not to jump? Don’t jump on the bed. It’s not safe… Hmm

So, with flexibility, you have to allow both actions in the muscle- the sliding together and apart and by allowing one side to ’shorten’, ‘contract’, slide together, it allows the opposing side to release, lengthan, slide apart. Dancers are always trying to lengthen everything!!

I did half of the barre with my eyes closed today. That was brilliant. It made me really feel my subtle senses all over my body. And I can imagine that I can see, right? Got to practice that some more!

So, my intension that I shared with Shannon yesterday was to be a strong, dynamic, flexible, versatile dancer. I recognized a part of myself that didn’t believe it, so didn’t do it. So now, I’m going to do it. Be it. And me and Shannon are going to make incredible performances and change the dance world with love, imagery, Franklin Method and in turn the world will dance again. Everyone. Individually and together.

A whole lot of stretching it out….

I’ve taken a couple of modern classes in the last few days and it’s been an interesting experience to get back into different movement forms again. My main hesitation with classes in general is that the warm ups usually do not create an embodied ‘ready to dance’ feeling. Instead they can bring you into a sense of separation from experiencing the body. This is partly due to the tradition of the flow of the exercises, the fascination with the outer form, and the lack of cues that bring you into an experience inside of yourself.

I have managed to find an amazing space to connect to my embodiment and imagery in Christine and Zvi’s ballet classes, but only after a while of practicing and training my focus and implementing what I learn with Franklin Method. Right now there are no classes taught from this understanding that I have found. It’s been good for me to get back into different classes, and interesting to experience my body after putting it through that. I haven’t felt it feel like his for a long time- because I’ve only been practicing Franklin Method in ballet class.

So since class the other day, my hamstrings have been very unhappy at being stretched in ways that doesn’t support their function. It also feels like my joints have less integrity.

There’s this strange belief that stretching will make you a better dancer. It makes sense on some level that we would think that- you want a high leg- stretch it. I used to me queen of stretching at dance college! Every spare moment I had was spent stretching. It wasn’t all bad, but it didn’t improve my technique, ease, coordination or stability. The thing is that to improve movement, muscles need to lengthan and contract in a balanced way. You can’t hold a muscle in place- ’strong’ and then stretch it out after.. Muscles need to move dynamically and in this way support the movements of the bones that they are attached to. Bones actually move inside the body!- dynamically, three dimensionally and spiral in relationship with each other.

When you stretch statically, you mainly stretch nerves, blood vessels and fascia- which cuts down blood flow and proprioceptive feedback (which means you feel less, and the brain gets less information). So if the brain can’t see the body so well, you experience being less coordinated, weak, shakey, less grounded.. And then you try to counter that with ’strength training’ or holding the parts in place which creates tension.

To move dynamically and with good coordination, you need a well integrated body and nervous system so that communication is efficient and the messages get through at high speed. If you impede this, then the body needs to keep itself safe, and so tightens up again. Moving without sensing is how we get injured!

So, soon, I see that we will have dance classes where we have input that provides the tools to bring people into an experiencing their strength and flexibility in a way that really does that rather than the opposite.

There is a misunderstanding and confusion between strength and tension. Often we feel tension and think ‘oh good, that means I’m working really hard!’ But infact it’s just you battling with yourself. (it’s just like life actually!)

Ok, enough of this for my blog… This is not the whole story… I’m going to write some articles :-)

As I write about this it’s reminding me so much of how I felt before Franklin Method (and BodyTalk) and how thankful to have them as part of my life on every level!

Go take a Franklin Method class and experience your potential!

… and on that note

Why do people say ‘that moved me’ about beautiful music? Right? Because it literally does. It makes us vibrate. It creates dance. Movement. Life. Nothing is still. If it’s still, then it must cease to exist cos there’s no more vibration and everything vibrates.

And so holding anything still or ridgid creates stagnation and decay- like our joints need to move fully- every muscle, fascia, cell needs to glide past the adjacent one or else there’s stuck-ness and then it’s not dancing. So the movement between every large and minute piece creates a song and a dance. Isn’t there a song about that? If there isn’t, there should be!

Everything dances

Everything dances. All cells, molecules, leaves, sounds, moments, ideas, creations. And dancing is a feeling. How else can you describe it? If you had never felt dance, could you understand it? No, because it’s simply an experience. I love that everything is a dance and the more I allow myself to soften and feel it, the more I can feel everything vibrate and dance.

In class the other day, I was watching my muscles dance with my bones. It was like they were playing a game with each other and doing a dance between themselves. The more they sensed each other, the more in harmony they became, and the more strong, co-ordinated and cohesive I became.

The more I can be in that place of dancing with all my experiences, the more they flow like spiraling water cascading and interacting with the rocks producing a tune of grace. Movement creates sound. Brilliant! Everything I hear is movement- vibration. So when I move, I am creating sound.

I’m going to listen to the tunes even more. Music. Dance. Why do I dance? Why do I create through movement? Cos if movement creates sound, and sound is movement- and thought or imagination creates movement and therefor sound and vibration. So my mind is dancing. It would make sense to have my mind and body humming in tune with each other!!?

End of summer

It’s the end of summer. I can feel it in the air and my resistance to letting it go. Although I know that fall and winter are going to be amazing and full of beauty and adventure.

This transition feeling is interesting as it reminds me on a subtle level of past events at this time of year- letting go of past summers and moving into new ventures.

…. Continued on Monday

A new day. Feeling like the transitions have moved and I’m in a new space of fall excitement.

Today in ballet, I had some amazing images of seeing my body being dancing molecules all communicating and working together. At each moment all of the molecules need to be aware of the big picture.

It feels like I’m on a snowboard adventure today with the mix of excitement, joy, exhilaration, apprehension, determination… When you climb up to new places it’s scary- but then you have this whole new experience of sailing through frictionless softness with only fear to let go of. And you know that there’s nothing to fear, cos you’ll just land in a big pile of soft feathery snow, so you can just pick a line and nail it! When you’re in that place, time slows down and there are infinite possibilities- all founded in joy. I’m ready!

I had a visit by a mosquito last night. Strange. It just bit me between my eyebrows. I woke up and in an instant went from wondering where it was- to destroy… to hoping it wouldn’t get me again… to recognizing it’s all coming from me!!? Even the mosquito. Everything. So I decided not to get bitten again- and I didn’t. It was quite a moment of expansive wonderment and downloading :-)

Just do be do be do it. NOW

That’s it. Always. Now. It’s all in the now. And it’s all about me, cos I am everything and everywhere! And so, it’s coming from me! Everything.

If I am the bee, then I can decide to fly away. And so I do :-) How big- or small can you hold that? It’s all in the SPace. The Space where everything exists. Where everything is possible, because it’s all there already.

So, as I remember this, and just do it. And just be it, it comes together and of course it is. It’s just MSM on a bigger level. When you do MSM (mental simulation of movement), you are creating the pathways in the brian that tell the brain what you are going to do on a physical level, without actually doing it. (ie. you are imagining yourself doing a movement without actually moving). Then when you actually do the movement, it’s a totally different, easier experience than before. SO you have created the neural pathways in the brain- or made the blueprint, or strengthened the blueprint.

… so it follows that when you MSM anything- be it a movement, an action, an image, you are strengthening the neural pathways and it becomes easier. Otherwise, you’re just practicing your old habits. ie, what you do all the time. If you keep doing something, you get better at that, whether it’s supporting you or not!

I guess the question is, are you aware of what you’re practicing, and then can you choose to practice something different? After all, there are infinite possibilities. So, you just do it. Just be it. Then it just is!

Why this picture? I’m not sure. It’s a rock. It looks like a bottom.

Some stuff

It’s rainy and cold here. Feels like fall. It’s always a bit sad cos that means winter- dark… there’s something built into me to not like it. My house feels cold and dark and I can feel the worries in the NYC air.

But I know I don’t need to go there- and going to class is the best thing. I am even more in the place of just being dance class feeling- rather than feeling like I’ve had weeks off and i’ve lost it all and have to work back up. It is just there. It didn’t feel like I’d had that much time off- or taken a flight yesterday.

Had some amazing feelings and images in class. I was feeling that I am just a bunch of molecules and I can just imagine them into shapes and space. And that if you’re just a fraction ahead then you have infinite possibilities and you don’t have to be subject to the old neural pathways that are dragged into the past and ingrained as patterns.

Then I saw myself in this big soft balloon type sprere. It moved with me and softly moved into space as I allowed myself to expand and be in it. It was kinda like a tensegrity feeling from the outside in.

My arms/ ribs/ shoulders have changed too. There’s an opening for new options and I am realizing how I’ve had this funny ‘my arms are cut off at my shoulders’ thing going on. Then I could see it in so many people. The break between the arms rather than seeing them fully and connected dancing from the sternum. Who ever put that belief into the world? Where did we get all these screwie ideas about the body??

Breathe in New York

Coming home to NYC has felt a little bit of a bumpy landing as I move into a new space as my life transitions yet again. As I have new experiences and move into new aspects of who I am- and letting go of who I am not, it’s incredible to watch how this transforms everything. At each moment of change, everything has to change.

Re-evaluation… New way of life

At each new insight there is a reconfiguring that takes place in every moment. Coming back to NY after such big shifts means another reevaluation of my life that I left just 2 weeks ago. I can’t just slide back into it, as I’m not that person anymore. So I’m watching the pieces re-jig around me.

This morning I caught myself in the ‘i’m going to be late’ story. “what am I believing here?… I know better than that.” and so I changed the story- and there we go. The timing was exactly perfect to the second…. 9.59…. 10.00 “See I told you!”

Everything is possible. And everything is part of my story. A car just stopped near me, and there are two women singing to the radio the chorus part of Alicia Keys and JZ… “So this is New York. Concrete jungle where dreams where dreams are made of, there’s nothing you can’t do…” I heard this song for the first time last night- and here it is again as I write this sat in the sun.

Water at night

It’s 3am. My dreams woke me up again. Sometimes they feel so pertanent that I have to write them down- see them- hear them. They’re not so much like dreams, and more like a story I’m reading. I wake up and have to keep a soft focus to read them and with them usually has come a shift in perspective with somthing.

I think tuning back to writing my blog is a big part of this shift tonight. I have taken a bit of a break- not so much for any logical reason, but rather because I have been lacking the clarity in how to share many of my experiences these past months. Maybe a part of me didn’t believe it enough to trust to put it out there, but it seems right now that I need to get back on it!

I wish my iPhone didn’t always turn the keyboard when you do. How can you lie on your side and type? You can’t. Apple please make that an option!

Each day has been blowing me away and yesterday was no different. Shannon (Murphy) and I had an amazing conversation that really felt like information and realizations just flowing in to be put into sound waves and then observed through us. The Space within us- I – we- I saw this infinite space that is within where everything already exists. Every single possibility, story, experience, piece of information, expression. It then just becomes about what you choose. Or what you allow yourself to choose. If there has been an experience that became a memory that is influencing you- ie. that memory IS you- you are the result of that experience, then you cannot be present with the person you are now with infinite new possibilities. You’ve already discarded a bunch of possible options based on what happened before- and usually it was an event where you opened or expressed or wanted a certain outcome and the result was you ‘got hurt’. But in retrospect, looking back, really, those experiences don’t make sense to influence this present moment- and in fact, if you look at the original experience you may recognize that the event which led to the ‘hurt’ was in fact a result of just the same thing- taking action based on not wanting to get hurt. If we really knew that we couldn’t get hurt because all of the possiblities are within us, then we wouldn’t have to act out of fear because we know that it’s only up to us on the inside anyway. If you have ever experienced a moment of joy- excitement- inspiration… then you have access to that feeling. Do you need to have something outside of you justify it? Or can you just choose to feel it? And which came first? Have you ever noticed how when you feel good, the world looks brighter? Not a big surprise I’m sure, but really to recognize the ‘reasons’ why we dont support ourselves and go into a downward spiral of emotions? The question is- can you really give it to yourself? The gift of letting go of the outside story that we call life and recognize that it’s coming from inside of us?

Yesterday after such an amazing conversation with Shannon, I felt my heart all minty like spearmint- not the usual image or feeling- but it was alive and zinging. I wanted to share the conversation and really I wanted somone else to really get it too. But that on itself was exactly what we were talking about that doesn’t work. Looking for outside acnloedgement and someone else ‘getting it’ so that I could maintain the feeling. But as we discussed- it can’t be taken away. It’s inside. It’s been felt and experienced. I had in an instant made the fact that somone else not getting it more important than my experience of it. It had already been beautifully observed and a shift had taken place but I (or part of me) wanted more. Quite perfect to watch.

Time now to sleep again.

One more thing before I do. My body does BodyTalk on itself now- I guess that’s called health!? But it’s like I can feel the shifts and connections taking place inside of me and the stuff being processed. And tonight I just realized that this is transpiring out into the outside world.

Ok, enough. Sleep.

Each day

It’s been yet again a long time since I wrote. So much is happening and I have been very slack at putting it on here, and expressing it in words. It now time to get back and share some of the amazing-ness which I am experiencing.

Each day has new magic that unfolds and seeing how we are connecting with the world, life, it’s experiences and bringing us all together into mutual respect and recognition of the joy in us all. I keep seeing it in everything. In all that I do.

I have also remembered how much how much I love jumping!

What a beautiful day

It seems that when I go through changes, I seem to disappear from my world of blogging. It’s been ages- since the BodyTalk conference that I’ve written anything. Since then, I’ve finished my 2nd year of Franklin Method Teacher training, and my life, body and mind are opening to all kinds of new experiences and possibilities.

Check out this beautiful pic I took on my phone yesterday. I went to the beach before we went to the Killer’s concert at Jones Beach~ which was fantastic. I am loving human or dancer. I am definitely dancer dancer dancer!

I feel so blessed that I get to experience to much joy and wonderful friends and feel the ocean and the air and the freedom of my body.

The BodyTalk conference was incredible. I had many amazing experiences and new connections formed in my brain and awareness.

Last week’s Franklin Method teacher training was a similar event~ with lots of changing and letting go of old patterns. Quite incredible…

More on that soon.

Fried egg brain

Today I have felt like my brain is a fried egg. It has gotten steadily more fried as the day has gone on. I have so much to process from the past 9 days and feel like there’s so much more coming in the next 9 days.

There seems to be a conspiricy keeping me from getting home tonight… No Q trains seemed to arrive. I got on the N thinking it was the Q- realized in time to change, but then ended up going back toward Manhattan due to my fried brains. And now, 3 trains later-all of which does not want to take me home, I’m still here at Dekalb wondering why I’m not home yet.

Rainbow

This morning I woke up to a beautiful rainbow spanning widely across the sky. It made my heart full of joy and full of ideas and inspirations. I haven’t had a whole lot of time to write them down, and it’s been interesting these past few weeks, I haven’t written very much. Mostly because so much has been shifting on so many levels, and I haven’t really known how or what to put into words.

I really recognized these past few days how amazing the Franklin Method is, and how it has such an integral role for me and my life, and the BodyTalk world… and beyond. And similarly, with BodyTalk, how amazing that is, and how that’s so important to the availability for people to be able to touch and embrace the Franklin Method.

Embodying where you want to be. Choosing that place. Hmm.

More on that when my brain isn’t so buzzing. (Had a very cool session from Lynn today on my money matrix, that is zapping a mind crystal… I’ll let you know how it goes!)

Back in the city

Heading back to NYC to continue my adventure… Now I’m back. The day after I started writing this on the plane. Had to turn my phone off. Now I’m on the train heding to class feeling so much moving through me.

Wow. What a conference/ class/ experience/ shift. Wow. So much to share, and yet when I was in it, didn’t realy feel like writing.

Now I’m back here for two days of ’space’ from input I feel that explosive enthusiastic dynamic creative wave zing through me. I’m just having to obseve it and feel the feelings and let go of my limits- I’m observing them all over.

Yesterday at the airport I was checking out facebook and the responce from an update in incredible. Immediately you are connected with people all over the world who are feeling and responding to you. In that instant you are connected and in one place. This touched a very deep part of me and I almost cried!

I’ve been having these experiences this past week of going to this deep place- which isn’t really a place. It’s like an inward force or pull or spin where everything keeps travelling upwards the center. I don’t know how else to describe it right now.

When Amit Goswami spoke at the conference it connected me to that place so much more deeply, my whole body shook and I just cried. But it didn’t feel like me crying. It was just there. I had more of these experiences with the sessions that I got through my stay there and it’s like the pieces of he puzzle are revealing themselves and putting themselves together little by little.

Expansive. Contractive. It’s all there. I’m the spin. I am going to have a different experience of turning from now on. We’ll see how I feel in class.

This morning I felt grief, fear, excitement, enthusiasm, terror and joy all pretty much at the same time. My mind tried to take me into the radon for the fear, and in that instant I could have lived that. But I won’t. It’s not real.

Hands and maps. What is it? What I the shape? What does it all mean?

Two days in NYC and then I’m off to PA for my third week of Franklin Method teacher training. I’m so excited and apprehensive at the same time. I know another big shift is coming. It feels like I’m stepping through a big doorway into an unknown world.

Here we go. The adventure never stops.

Back online

My wordpress app on my phone has been down for a while an I haven’t had a chance to sort it out. It appears to be working ok now.

It will be day three of the BodyTalk conference tomorrow, and it has been truely magical to connect with all the other BodyTalkers and the IBA matrix. And of course, swimming in the sea with the dolphins! I was about ten feet away from one this evening. Incredible.

I feel like I have lots more to share, but now it’s late and I am going to sleep. Night x

Loving, leaping, traveling, connecting, sharing

What a beautiful day. Thank you so much. It’s incredible to feel the sand, the air… the feeling of the entire ocean supporting and flowing through and around my body. So supportive and exhilarating.

There were so many times today when I just needed to run around.

Every day I feel like I am able to hold more space for possibilities… and as I do that, the world seems to open up even more. I am connecting with such wonderful, inspiring people and getting to share this amazing life.

I have wanted to write more this week, but my iphone app keeps crashing- and there were a couple of posts that simply got lost.

I had another amazing BodyTalk experience this week- with a dancer walking in with a knee injury, and walking out with no pain. Sessions like that always make me very honored to be practicing this work.

I’m teaching BodyTalk Access tomorrow, so I am off to bed… and I will try and write more. Need to get my iphone buggy app fixed. Any ideas!??

Balanced neck

Check out my picture of C2.. the atlas. I have been carrying them around with me (the plastic ones that is…), and this was a little drawing I did. In one of Eric Franklin’s books, he shows this bone being like a little man holding his hands together to support the skull. What a great image.

I’ve been imaging my c1 and c2 a lot these past few days, and seeing it moving more freely. It has made a big difference in my piroettes.

Then today, I had an adjustment from a wonderful chiropractor names John D’Ambrosio who I met at the NYC Triathlon. I don’t often let anyone do much other than BodyTalk, but I had a great feeling about him, and it was really great. He adjusted my c1, and my neck feels far more aligned.

Ok, enough. Off to bed. I’ll get back on this blogging thing :-)

Taking responsibility and a bird

So, I made it to the beach this weekend, which was wonderful. I also got a nice lesson out of it which I feel has been clarified today, and shifted a lot… Taking responsibility for other’’s feelings is really not a useful or helpful thing to try and do. One, it doesn’t work. Two, if they are choosing to feel whatever… you can’t really change that. Three, feeling bad doesn’t help other people not to feel bad.

Today, I felt that I was able to let go of a lot of the responsibility that i was holding when it comes to other people’s feelings. I don’t really get this so often anymore, but when it comes up it can be strong.

I love this picture. The bird seemed to turn up just for the picture. The crashing waves were very inspiring and invigorating…. gave me lots of imagery to work with!

Iphone crashing

Well, it has been way too long since I wrote on my blog! Seems I’ve gotten a little lost in emailing, and my blog has taken a back seat for a few days… I actually wrote a post about kombucha blobs, which I thought was very cool… But it doesn’t want to upload from my phone and it keeps crashing. Rubbish. I don’t know if there’s any bringing it back??

It has been a wonderful week of insights, images and connections. I have had a bunch of realizations about things, and my body is enjoying the process. I had a great BodyTalk session with Terryann last week, and it came up that my body wanted lots of BodyTalk… (like i don’t know that!), so I’ve been getting sessions from different people which has been amazing.

The zone

When you’re in the zone, the train just comes! You turn up at the station, and there it is. It’s great when life flows like that.

It was incredible today. Sharing BodyTalk with so many excited people, I got the chills a whole lot of times and feel more energized after my 9 hour day than I did at the beginning of it! I love how doing BodyTalk does that!

So exciting

I thought I posted this yesterday, but it looks like it didn’t … So here it is now :-)

I am so inspired to dance, create, do BodyTalk, Franklin Method…. Exploring and experiencing the amazing potential of the body and mind creates this zing which is just beautiful. It’s simple. There are no words- it’s just exciting and vibrant.

Today I class, I was experiencing my ribs again. This time I was really focussing on feeling them changing shape and springing and propelling me through space. In turns, I am beginning to be able to see the spiral they create. It’s so much fun! I had many different images today, from muscles flowing to joints sliding to rabbits springing my talus and light shining from between my ribs… :-)

We are doing the Expo at the NYC Triathlon tomorrow and Saturday, so it’ll be interesting to see how we get on! Either way we get to share BodyTalk, which is always good!

Excited about breakfast

I’m excited about breakfast! Between me and breakfast is some lovely sleep time. 

My mum made it safe and sound to England, and I saw her and my dad yesterday. Here are my wonderful parents on the other end of ichat! :-)

I am feeling more inspired images every day… I need to start drawing them more. The other day in the park, there were swarms of fireflies and it was magical to watch them. The next day in my Franklin Method class, I have the image of the fireflies lifting my shoulders for me. They were lit up brightly, and making my shoulders feel very supported and glowie! 

Ok, so I need to get to bed so that I can get up and have breakfast!

Moving into new spaces with my closest connection

I am honored to have an incredible, inspiring and beautiful woman for my mother. We are incredibly close, and often that tie has felt too close- without the room for us to move freely and breathe as individuals. She lives in Bali, which is the other side of the world, which most of the time means that we have lots of physical space!

She has been staying with me for the last 2 weeks, and we have both been through huge transformations as individuals and relationship… allowing each of us the space to really be separate beings who relate to one another, rather than having so many energy pulls and ties of neediness between us.

I am blessed to have a mother who does BodyTalk, and is open to looking at herself, the world and relationships in different ways- rather than getting stuck in old patterns. To be willing to look at that, and break up the patterns and habits is very brave and takes courage…

Here we go, on our adventures… to the next chapter.

Headphones … Where are you?

I vow that I shall not be without my proper headphones again- ever! These two weeks with rubbish iPhone headphones have been torture for my ears! I think that when you’re in NYC- especially on the subway, if you don’t have proper ear protection/ music volume it’s too much for the brain to deal with! I hope they come today!!! Waaaah.

Why do I still look outside of myself for answers and support!? I see this happen- it’s definitely changed, and I catch it more quickly. I know it’s only up to me what I choose to feel and energize! Also, I think cos I feel all this new expansiveness unfolding it’s unknown as to how it will look. And I just need to let that go, so that there’s the space for it to happen.

I’ve also been noticing that I tend not to stand centrally on my femurs. When I catch it and feel their support balanced in my hip sockets, my whole body changes. I feel that internal support which then allows my extremities to let go and not fight to hold me up.

Feeling the support of my femurs, spine, sternum… I am emboding that more and more. Leaving early enough to get to ballet in time to warm up properly is part of supporting myself. Why wouldn’t I!??

The end of an era

I don’t know why, but this morning I feel a huge surge recognition of it being the end of an era. So many things seem to be transitioning in me and the world around me. I just found out that my old dance school in Brighton, UK, is changing to be run by someone new…. It’s strange to think of it not there anymore.. even tho I’m not there. There are changes in New York with many  people. Big things closing, changing, transitioning into new. 

I am at a similar place, and I think that I am realizing that there is some grieving that needs to be done- at least on some level. Letting go of anything, changing, stepping onto a new path, or beginning a new adventure. The old thing has to end, and the new thing is unknown and can be scary.

One thing that I really have learnt this past year, is that trust is the most important thing to stay connected to. I still have ‘Believe’ written on my white board in the Space. This is what everything is built on. If you really know and believe and trust that the Universe is going to support you (especially if you are living your passion). It’s not going to just drop me on my head. Sometimes… often… the how’s and the what’s seem to far away to get a grasp on, and so they are better left unknown- but the trust that it will be brings about the situations that create the situations. As if by magic.

Everything can change. That’s what I wrote at the end of my last post. Now I want to change that to ‘Everything changes’. It’s the only constant! It’s learning to let go of the fear around change. Wow… seems to be in the air on so many levels.

Time to breathe.

Scapular travels

I am carrying my scapular with me today :-) I’ve come to Central Park with my mum to hear the philharmonic orchestra and I’m taking the time to bond with my scapular. (and my mum :-) )

Today Ann sent me a message declaring her excitement at feeling her scapulars and illiums moving. It’s so wonderful for people to start to connect to the magic within their body- it’s so inspiring.

Here we are in the park listening to amazing music. Live music dances through your soul and awakens the cells it feels like.

This week has been quite interesting with my mum being here. It’s brought up all kinds of stuff, but doing Franklin Method with her has been incredible- she’s had all these insights that have blown me and and her away. Insights in her body, and mind and the dynamics between us. It’s amazing to see the transformation in her and our relationship.

Anything can change.

Ribs are amazing

Have you ever thought about how amazing ribs are? They’re all bendy and round and go from the back to the front.

The only good thong about these headphone (iPhone ones), is that I can tap out my cortices without taking them off! I’m still waiting for my new ones from Bose.

Choosing love. I can really feel the decision being made in my being this morning. My mind is trying to give me reasons not to feel it. They’re all stupid non- real reasons! The feeling in my body is like seeping old water and beliefs being squeezed out of me!

Just to be present with my body and feel the feelings in it brings me back to that place of infinite possibilities. Just choose it. Ok ok! Choosing. Feeling.

After hugging Amma (or rather, being hugged by her) I felt like my zinging flow had been boosted. Does she just look right through you and see and love every part? My hands were loving it. And when I choose it, they still are!

Went to circus school with my mum last night. Fun to fly!